Monday Moaning Past Returning
So it is a bit of an silly title for a post but as it can be read in many ways it makes sense. I am back after some time away, having the need to blow of some steam. Or a lot of steam as the past caught up with me.
Now in a way it is or was my own doing, making mistakes after all is part of life. It is just the way I was treated that truly blew a fuse. Now I do not regret the things I done, after all if I never did do those things I would not have become any wiser and stand here before you sharing.
Now to make a long story short, I used drugs and had my fair share of addictions, I battle with every day. No matter what people say once addicted the struggle is there for the rest of your life. It is knowing, how it made you feel in this crooked world. I have not been a nice guy, I plundered and raided and even conned people. And I been close to returning to a life I left behind me many years ago.
It is strange how one can think and return to what they knew, no matter how wrong it is. But then the money was easy.
Now I am struggling to find a job and when I did I was getting a slaves wages. It is ridiculous how the lower working class is treated due to some economics mishaps in the past. Five dollars an hour with the added, take it or leave it. Laws and rules made it even easier for an employer to sack your ass. Power is given and abused in a way it should not be, just so a company can survive. I am working class as I do not have any papers or degrees that are so important these days. I only have my two hands a brain and my wit and it has proven most helpful as I can learn and tackle all that is thrown at me.
It is the working class that is making this world tick, without them there is nothing to work in, there is no money spend or to be made and some lazy CEO has to do the dirty work themselves.
But getting a job and being treated a dog is one thing. The other is that I am accused of several crimes, one of which is fraud. This is where it gets interesting. As mentioned I made mistakes and apparently I was not to be found by our government and tax companies and so forth. I disappeared from the grid, now that alone is an achievement in this digital day and age. But despite all that I want to become part of this community again and get a foothold on this planet. Hard work but I am ready.
Mistakes made but willing to move on and pay my dues. Was it not that I cannot get a bank account from which I can pay bills and all other debts I got. No way to receive money from a job that treats you miserable but in the end it is what has to be done. The piling up of accusations that are getting in my way, got me confused and angry.
It blew a fuse in me and I needed to clear my head before I was again ready to tackle this obstacle that grew in my way. Making the game plan was not easy and time spend alone I also used to see the world anew.
And upcoming Monday Moaning I might go deeper into the changes we made and that I have seen. This is a short version. Feel free to comment and ask questions.
Life has become less meaningful to those living or so it seems. As someone who used to have nothing still has nothing, I can say I have it all and living it to its fullest extent.
PS I like to say a big THANK YOU to everyone who thought of little old me and send me a message over the time I was gone. It was amazing and warmed my heart to a point I smiled with tears of happiness.