Frolic Friday September 2014
A year and some weeks have passed since I started this blog and not much has changed. Okay maybe the look is changing a little but other than that it pretty much as I first started it. The weekly Returning of My Monday Moan and Tuesday being a day of poetry, whereas the Wednesday became known for the Prompts or small stories I tried something new.
Thursday has been a loyal McSniff day and its second adventure is still growing. My Fridays are changelings Frolicking if you will with today’s free writing or else its Music Friday at least twice a month. Saturday is my day off since I stopped heart ship and Sunday I try to give a little spice.
And as I am typing all this I wonder how I kept up. What got me going, what keeps me going?
I started all this to empty my head as it is overloading with thoughts I need to get out. It is very tiresome to constantly be in thought, to constantly have a whirlwind of words, ideas, thoughts going through your head. I am tired. As I can’t seem to write as much anymore. Have to admit that ever since my laptop broke I am having trouble writing. Who knew that one can be so attached to a certain writing place/spot?
That is not all. It is not the only reason why I feel so tired and having to drag myself from day to day. I never considered life to be revolving around me, so I put myself in last place. But the moment you want to come first, like with a job hunt, it can be devastated when you come last. Or even second. Hunting day in and out gathering an hour here and there does not get my bills paid, and that adds some weight on everyday life.
This blog is my joy, my escape, where I find you smiling, sharing your journey. I move forward one step at a time, one day at a time. Never really looking to tomorrow as I truly never want today to end. Yesterday is gone and so is last week and I lived those days without regret, knowing full well what I did and even why. But today I do not want it to end.
Smiles all around from those around me, people with whom I share today the moment. Precious seconds pass and in return you have a smile, a thought or even conversations. Just like I have with you, I may not see the smile other than in a comment, or here you think out loud but it is what keeps me going. Simple fact that today matters and I certainly do not want it to end.
Factors or external influences can have that effect on us. We can thrive on those around us. If we lift them up they will pull us up if they are not to much of an ego. If they are not al that selfish. But all that doesn’t matter today.
Another influence is my lifestyle I adopted some time ago. Knowing full well not everyone would accept it as normal. But hey what’s wrong with being different. And it is from that side I had a message. To have me go back and remember the fun loving memories of our talks, and her innocents showing when she would run away. It is often the little things that make us smile and show to be a big significant memory to help you through your days.
I never think I am doing anything special but to be remembered and thought of as being important to someone does make that memory very special.
Live by the rules you set.
It sounds so simple but you should try it sometimes. It is tough when you find yourself surrounded by people who think you should do different. But it is a hand pushing me, helping me keeping my back straight even when I take a time to breath.
Thanks to those rules and messages, comments and smile from those around me I feel less tired.
I am still tired and never want today to end. For today I am smiling with you my friends.
So yeah I am hopping like a rabbit on LSD or something, so not even sure if it all makes sense. Though I am moving forward one step at a time, working hard to keep sane and find my place in society
I thank you all for the smiles and thoughts shared they mean a lot to me.
Keep on smiling.